College is some sort of cruel joke

I had Orientation yesterday at Coastal Carolina University. I registered for classes there and right after I did that I received a bill for $3,650. It was pretty devastating. How in the hell am I supposed to pay this? Even if I choose a monthly payment plan, I have no fucking chance in hell of paying over $900 a month plus paying $475 a month to my grandparents. How in the fucking hell ma I going to do this? My fucking schedule got cancelled and I can't pay shit, so what the hell am I supposed to do? I guess I could just NOT go. That would be the only thing I could possibly do. What else can I possibly figure out? I may have to wait another semester. I'm not sure. My financial aid still hasn't come in yet and that really pisses me off. Even though what I want to dow ith my life doesn't require a college degree, it would certainly help and suposedly college is the best time of your life, but I'm not sure about that either. I'm just so confused right now because I know what I want to do, but it's so far away because there's only one thing my family wants for me and if I don't go to college, God knows what's going to happen. Fucking college bullshit. Why should I even go? It's not going to help me in the field I want to go in. I always hear people say, "An education is worth everything." They market this shit to us through everyone but I'm not sure about it. IT's so weird. I'm not sure if I am even into that sort of thing. I think I'm going to Olive Garden tonight. But abobut college, I just don't know if it's for me. I really don't know. I can't understand it anymore. It's just something I wonder about because everyone tells me that if i don't go, my life will suck. Says who? I can still have a fulfilling life if I don't go. I just have to figure it out on my own. I want to be on that stage. That's all I know. I don't want to go through bull shit anymore. So what do I do? I'll update on my decision later. Peace.