Goodbye Univershitty

So, I'm out of the Univershitty. Ha, I sure hope I'm the one who thought that little saying up. That's what it was to me. Fucking bullshit, I say. So I've decided to put my comedy career into full spring. I'm starting out looking at places in Myrtle Beach where there is an open mic night and I am going, no matter what. I don't care when it is or how it's taking place, I'll be there. I've got some other ideas, too. I'm working on a script for a couple of different things, but for some reason I can never get past the first few pages before it just falls apart. I don't know what it is. I need better self-discipline I think, but hey, what could I possibly do that will help? Maybe setting certain schedules and stuff for making sure that I do what I need to do (writing) when I need to do it. I can write jokes whenever the mood strikes me, but writing a script is very long and it will take a very long time and a lot of man-hours to finish it. I have to work on different strategies to implement while working on it. If I can get onstage twice this week, it will be a bonus. If I can get on more, great. But I have to do it. Without doing it, I'm holding myself back. I just have to understand that I was put on this Earth to do this shit, so I might as well do it. I've been kind of down lately because I really can't see a way of how this will work, but I realize that if I know what I want to do, the how will take care of itself. I just have to keep doing it. I don't need some assholes telling me what I should and shouldn't do. Why shouldn't I be who I am and all? So on to stardom, and beyond, I say! I feel I grasp a major understanding of the comedic mind and just have to apply myself more and memorize my jokes, or at least get some sort of feel for each of them. I want to be comfortable just saying them naturally, not stammering over my words, so I'll have to use some methods for overcoming fear. Something of that nature. If there's no fear, I'm perfect. Fear is the only thing I actually fear. Fear is a projection into the past or future, which isn't always correct. LIke if you're afraid to ask someone out on a date because he/she might reject you, then you're afraid of something that hasn't even happened yet, but if it does, what's the big deal? Embarrassment. Oh, that's not going to kill you, is it? No. So even if it doesn't turn out the way I hope, it's no big deal. It will take more hard work, that's all. And good night you all.