The life others want you to have

Have you ever been stuck in a position where everyone in your life wants you to go down a certain path but it just doesn't resonate with you? That's what's going on in my life right now. It's so weird because they all want me to go to college and graduate with honors or whatever and get a boring ass job and live out the rest of my days in Suburbia. But I'm not sure that kind of life is for me. Like I try really hard to be myself, but when I do, I get resistance from people who care about me and will stop at nothing to get me to do what they want me to do because they feel if they don't, I'll be a lost cause. But that's not what's going on. I know what I want to do. I really do. And I know what I don't want to do to achieve that goal and that most likely is go to college. Maybe I'm not in the right mindset right now, I don't know, but it all seems pointless to some extent. I feel trapped in a perpetual state of resentment towards higher education. It eats up all my money, and my time as well and all I get is a piece of paper that tells me that I wasted all that time. Sure, it may get me a good job or whatever, but I'm not interested in getting a job. I'm more interested in being myself and doing what i want to do. If I told that to some people, they'd be like, "Well, life isn't about doing what you want, it's about getting security and being a puppet for your superiors." But why is it that way? And why do I have to follow those stupid rules and work a job 40 hours a week, sucking company dick just to get a promotion, and finally becoming something I loathe to an unimaginable extent? Sure, it may take some time to generate income without a job, but I'm good for it. It's not as hard as everyone makes it seem. I'm going the honorable route here, so no lying or stuff like that. I just want to do something (speaking, comedy) that will show my unique flair and be something that no one has ever done, bearing my signature. I don't want to be this expressionless automotron working for pocket change for the rest of my life. That's not who I aim to be. I aim to be someone who has rich, fulfilling experiences and lives life in the way I should, not the way other people want me to. People think they know what's best for you, but they're not always right. They try to force their thoughts about how you should live upon you and eventually, they'll force you to do what they want you to do, even against your will, which isn't right. Its mostly my grandparents, not my mother because I know no matter what I choose to do, I'll be accepted by her. But my grandmother is so nervous when it comes to things like this, and she'll get pissed off if I drop out again, but what can I do? Keep living for some other people or start living for myself? It's a decision that I will have to make from a different perspective and eventually figure out what I am doing on this planet. Until then, I'll have to do something...God knows what.