Thursday, August 24, 2006

What Do You Wan to Do With Your LIfe?

If you knock on wood, it will make a distinct sound. If you touch a cardboard box, it will feel a certain way. If you do what you are supposed to be doing with your life, you'll feel an amazing, wonderous passion that will embody your mind, body, and spirit.
But what the hell are we supposed to do with our lives. Some people just ssem to know and do what they want to do, while others sit in a state of paralysis waiting to figure out what it is they will devote a significant portion of their life to. But how to the people who think they have discovered their life's purpose really KNOW that they have? And how do the people who haven't yet figured out what they will be doing with their lives not know in the back of their mind what greatness is inside of them?
Let me share a personal story: When I was sixteen, I was diagnosed with brain cancer. The only thing that kept me going through the three brain surgeries, the radiation, and the unbearable pain was my sense of humor. If it wasn't for that, who knows if I would still be here today? I used that humor as a tool to make my life better. After a year in treatments and recovery, I was finally cured. I was glad, but now I had only one year to prepare to go to college, and I really wasn't sure what I wanted to do there. I really wanted to be a comedian because it is one thing I"m passionate about and it also really helped me through my time of trouble. So off I went to college as a Math major with a minor in Secondary Education. I thought I wanted to be a teacher and for a couple of weeks, it rang true. This wasn't what I wanted to do with my life. But I kept going. I didn't accept the truth of my desires. I ended up attending college for three semesters trying to earn a degree that would be essentially worthless to me because that's not what I wanted to do with my life. Eventually, I dropped out of college and decided to take some time off. I still didn't know what in the world I would have to do to become who I am supposed to be. I did perform stand-up comedy at Winthrop University several times with a decent response. Since I do not yet possess a driver's license and neither did I have any friends at WU that also performed comedy, I couldn't go to the comedy clubs either in Charlotte. So I only got limited experience, much less than I should have gotten. So I still didn't capture and develop my entire talent. So I went back home and I got a job. A job is a job any way you look at it. You work hard. You don't get paid much. It's not a very enlightening experience. I guess you could say I was off the radar for awhile. My grandparents were pushing me to get back to college or I would lose my health insurance. They kept saying that and pushing me to do something I wasn't sure I wanted to do at this point in my life. So I went back, for a week. I hated it. It wasn't me. I know what I have to do now, though. I don't need some asshole teaching me about communication. I know what I need to do to get good at stand-up comedy, and if I desire, public speaking. Hopefully there's a Toastmaster's club around here. I'll have to look that up. I just need to find people with alike minds and souls. People who I can relate to. But I've decided to follow my dream and become a stand-up comedian.
That's just a summary of how I discovered who I want to be and what I want to do with my life. It wasn't easy to figure out, because even if you know what you want to do, you will often get blank stares or questions from people who don't think that you should be doing what you are. But who are they do decide your life? One of the problems in today's society is that security is valued over passion. Get the good job, get the money, get the house with the white picket fence, get married, have kids, watch your kids grow up, see them off to college, retire, and live out your old days until the grim reaper comes and gets you. Sure, that may be fun for some of you, but that's not how I want to go about living my life. I want to do something that inspires me, not some socially conditioned load of you know what.
People in poverty often loathe the people who have more money than them. But there's really nothing that great about having an extra $20,000 dollars in your pocket every year. What is it going to get you except a nicer car or a slightly bigger house? So what? In the materialism age, there is so much that we think we need, and so little that we actually do need. A wise man once told me through a story I heard another wise man say, "There are two kinds of wealth. The first kind is where you can buy anything you desire. You are in some sort of power. The second kind of wealth is to need nothing. You are at peace with yourself and that's the only "materials" you need, except food, of course." Shelter is another high priority. Friendships can be very precious also on the hierarchy of wealth. Jesus Christ once supposedly said, "It is easier for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to be in the kingdom of heaven." That basically states that a man who only thinks about himself, buiding up his money in hopes of some sort of security, will never lead the fulfilling life he desires. He will evenuallly see that being rich isn't all it's cracked up to be and understand some things are more important than money. Perfect Ebeneezer Scrooge example.
So, if you're not sure what you want in your life, or what you want to do with it, I find journaling a very important tool. Just write questions down and wait for the answers to come to you. Just type or write whatever you feel after you write the question down. If that doesn't work, weigh your options and go with what inspires you most. And if you make an incorrect decision, it's never too late to correct it by changing your career.
As a side note, I am intending for traffic to build on this blog site. I really want to start making some money from this blog, so I've decided to add very dense material to it, other than the previous rantings I put on there.
It's just that I feel this is a great way to earn money without having a job and still giving value to the general public. The only problem is figuring out how to build traffic and also figuring a way to make this blog more mainstream. I'm not sure how many people read this blog, but I want there to be one thousand to one million times the traffic per month. Once I start performing comedy again, which will be very soon, I'll be able to provide a wealth of details about what gets laughs vs. what doesn't. Also, I'll be able to give you in-depth feedback about what going after your true passion feels like. So until next time, dream your life, then live your dream.

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